Am I losing again?
Ayoko na..
nakakasawa na..
Oh I hope hindi na talaga
Nakakasawa na rin kasi na lagi ka natatalo.. bakit pa kasi ako naiinlove?
Meron isang time na sobrang nainlove ako, I exerted my effort on her.. pero parang she doesn't see me as her guy.. then bigla nalang malalaman ko na may boyfriend na pala siya.. I went to that war unprepared.. I have brought all my weapons but in the end I wasn't able to use them..
Yeah nasaktan ako, AS IN.. kasi she is my dream girl and makikita ko siya sa ibang guy.. "That guy should be me" that was the thought running inside my head.. pero you gotta move on, she's with other guy and not you..
and so I did try to move on.. man moving on is hard kasi minsan nakikita ko sila magkasama.. I was able to move on because of my friends (thank god) and I told them that I won't fall in love again..
Fall in love.. yeah right, that is just a burden..
But then mukhang nasira ko na naman ang word ko about falling in love.. yes there are so many attractive faces around but wala akong maramdamang "Sparks" sa kanila ehh.. anyway, it was tuesday may game kami (Intrams ng college namin) our game will start at 7:30 pero nadismiss kami ng 6, so masyado pang maaga, so I did get something to eat tapos nanood muna ako sa isang volleyball game..
Then I felt the spark..
I saw this girl, playing volleyball then I began to feel a little bit curious, so pinanood ko talaga yung buong laban and My eyes are really glued on her..
My heart raced, sabi ko sa sarili ko nun, "whoa she is different ang lakas ng dating niya sa akin"
Then after a day, I am really curious on her.. gusto ko talaga malaman yung name niya.. so I did ask my friend (friend niya kasi yung teammate nung girl) Sinabi ko sa kanya if he could ask his friend kung ano name nung girl na yun.. he said ok mamayang gabi I'll let you know..
I was excited that time so I waited till evening until I went to sleep wala pa rin.. So the next day I really did watch her game.. then yun nga, luckily yung T-shirt niya may apelyido niya so I got a hint on what's her last name is.. now the problem is the 1st name?? so I really observed and then I heard one of her teammates mentioned her name..
BINGO! yan ang sigaw ng utak ko nung narinig ko yun... so nung nakauwi na ako, I really searched her name on Facebook then Bam! nakita ko siya and without a hesitation inadd ko siya.. ayun bigla akong kinabahan.. syempre I am not like this... tapos on that night din she accepted my friend request..
Then I started chatting her and nagrereply naman siya.. it was the happiest moment of my life.. So hanggang ngayon we are still chatting and texting
but then I saw something that really lost my confidence..
I won't mention it here basta parang it's like the 1st girl..
let's just say na she likes other man, and I am 100% sure it wasn't me...
Kelan kaya ako mananalo sa love?
kulang pa ba ang nagiging effort ko?
ewan ko ba.. sana hindi na to 'Losing game'
but even though na nakita ko yun, I won't give up I'll enter this battlefield and fight for her love.
Let me take this as my handicap, mas ok na yung ganito kaysa mag give up ako ng walang laban...
I won't lose again in love...
